always at it

July. things were steady for the most part. i liked my two days off work 5 and got home by 11 every night and was able to hang out and drink with friends and then two weeks later that just changed abruptly. 94 mass ave came closed and was about to reopen as mass ave tavern and i was being moved from harvard gardens. my one option to keep working was to join my new chef art, in opening mass ave tavern and joining his crew at back bay social club. being forced into these types of situations is extremely tough sometimes and can def weigh a lot on you. stress in this business isnt always slow to creep up on you. it just hits you like a ton of bricks and you're pushed to either break or keep rolling with the punches. i already had a pretty clear mind about how things work and understood that this is just how some things work out so i moved right along with it. they were short on staff at both restaurants. so to help out i dedicated my time to both and worked mornings at back bay and evenings at mass ave. and so began my 80 hour work weeks. i worked straight through each day with no days off for 4 and a half weeks into mid august. im not gonna say it was easy, but i sure as hell made it look like it. but after that youre body is just shit. mind too. you cant think for feel much of or for anything and you become very edgy. you don't sleep all much much and when you do its not that well. its a very lonely lifestyle to say the least. i know ive lost contact with a lot of friends and its sad to see people exit my life, but it just cant be helped in some cases. im not getting younger and this is my career and life now and if that means making new friends then so be it. ive only seen my family a small handful of times and that takes a lot of getting use to still. i miss them all but thats how it has to be for now. if youre reading this, and doing what you love, then keep doing it. i plan to keep this up cause ultimately no one else is gonna give you want you want unless you bust your ass for it. anyways. mid august and i still want more.